Today is a day to be grateful that I no longer have to go it alone…

I no longer believe that self-reliance is the answer. I tried that it did not work out so well, it left me Hungry, Angry, Lonely and Tired. It seemed to work for a time but then my life came to a sudden halt, I found myself in constant physical pain, overweight and honestly some days thinking death would not be so bad should it show up. I never thought about taking my life, but the emotional and physical pain was getting heavy and I was getting tired. From that place my higher power reached out into the darkness and offered a ray of hope. Each day I began to turn more and more of my life over to a belief that I did not have to control everything. I gave up alcohol, I gave up sugar and the need to be in charge of my own affairs. I found an easier softer way to live and life is no longer a heavy burden. I actually spend a lot of time singing to myself and saying gratitude’s throughout the day. 

Is everyday perfect now? Absolutely not. Does every problem have me running around thinking that the sky is falling? Absolutely not. Now I pause say the Serenity prayer in my head to the GOD (Grace Over Dis-Ease) of my understanding and I move on with Grace and Ease. 

I am now grateful for that bottom because it led me here to a place of hope, faith and companionship. Faith is like Wi-Fi it is invisible and connects us to what we need. 

Thank you, thank you, thank you.